I’ve actually got a piece of fanfiction here for you (bold, I know). I just finished Radio Silence by Alice Odeman- absolutely stunning book- and I wrote the letter from Carys to Aled that Aled never read because their mother intercepted it. If you’ve read Radio Silence, you’ll know 🙂
And if you’ve listened to the audiobook, read this letter in the voice of Aysha Kala. She did a phenomenal job narrating it. If not, just read it in a British accent. It’s so much better 😉
Oh, I miss you. I miss you too much.
It feels like I’m drowning in an ocean of guilt and I can’t do anything anymore without thinking about you. Yet somehow when I’m not feeling broken, it’s like I’ve never been more alive in my life.
I’m happy now. I miss you, and I miss home, in a way. But really, I’m happy. I’m better than ever and I don’t miss mum a single bit.
It’s kind of weird though, being someone else. I used to be Carys. But Carys Last is gone now, and February has taken her place. It’s a stupid thing to think about all the time, but I hope you’re well. I hope Daniel and Universe City are well, too.
If you must know, I don’t hate you. I did, because mum hated me but never you. You were the golden child. But now I just miss you. Even our stupid parts, even when mum was in a bad mood. It was never your fault, really. I can see now that it was all mum. She’s the demon. At least she won’t treat you like shit like she did with me, though.
Anyways, I’m okay. I’ve made friends. I stayed at Nan and Granddad’s place. It really was nice, to be away from mum and everything. You know.
But I left, last month. They’re not my parents, I can’t stay there forever. Even if I wanted to. And I started teaching. Teaching in London, teaching theatre. There’s Remy and Daisy from the National Theatre Organization and I might be falling for someone too. The name’s Taylor if you wanted to know.
Have you made any new friends? Do you love anyone? How is school? How is the podcast?
How are you, Aled?
I’m sorry I left. I’m sorry that you’re alone with mum. I’m sorry I didn’t write sooner. I didn’t know what to do or what to say but I’ll try my best to explain.
I couldn’t have stayed one more week in that hellhole. Mum hated me with a fire, and I needed to get out of there. So I left, suddenly. I know that doesn’t make it any better, but I did my best, Aled.
I hope you forgive me. It would be nice to talk to you again after these long months. Maybe everything’s changed between us, maybe it’s all the same, like I never left.
Fine, that’s wishful thinking. I know that I must have hurt you. But I hope we can move on from that.
You should know, though, that I have a new life. And I don’t want to leave it. I don’t know how we’ll do it, but I’m sure I can still see you without having to give up my new life.
I’m February now, not Carys. But we’re still twins, forever.
Lots of love,
If you’ve read Radio Silence, tell me what you think!
What did you think of this letter? Was it true to the characters? Have you read Radio Silence? Did you read this in the accent of Aysha Kala or just a general British accent?